New YouTube Channel

Today and yesterday I worked on my dream of teaching metaphysics with a new Youtube channel. I named it Portal to Esoterica. So far I have one video uploaded, and another I have all the parts for but need to put through movie maker. There was an icy wind all day so I didn't get to work outside at all.
If you hurry you might even be my first subscriber.

Portal to Esoterica

Today I decided to follow my dream of teaching metaphysics by starting a new Youtube channel called Portal to Esoterica. I even made the first Youtube video for it. But for some reason the quality of the video didn't come out well at all. I wonder if I accidentally changed the settings. Or if the camera is finally on it's way out. I just don't know. So I'm going to sleep on it and see if I still want to upload it tomorrow.

Ornamental Plum Tree at the library.

Hypnosis Shows

The dream I’m working on presently is revitalizing my hypnosis career, which seems to have gone completely stagnant. I just don’t know how to fix it. I joined a site to meet other hypnotists, but it just seems like a meat market and people that want free hypnosis sessions. And if I tell them this is my career, they say ‘see yah.’ My boyfriend isn’t into any of this stuff so there is no support there. I’m on my own, sink or swim, and I’m sinking like a rock tied to an anchor.

My Own Hypnosis Chat

My friend who believes in me just bought me a year's subscription to Paltalk, so I could open my own hypnosis chat room and build my hypnosis business. I was just blown away by his generosity. If you are on Paltalk, the room name is Paradise Hypnosis. It's not live all the time but you can still check out the home page and add it to your favorites.

Or follow me on Twitter under the Hypnolove banner.

Being an Artist

Today I worked on my dream of being an artist by listing new things in my Etsy shop. I love stitching things by hand. I love coming up with a new idea, drawing it out on paper and then seeing it come to life in whatever medium I'm using at the time, in this case felt and embroidery thread.

Yes I'm Still Hanging On

It has been just over a year since I posted here. Much like an elastic band stretched too far, when the mess my life was in finally snapped I got launched.  I moved out of Anaheim and into the Mojave Desert. I'm so far out of my comfort zone, I don't even know what planet I am on. And I still don't have a vehicle!

But I'm still working on making my dreams happen. I do art every day and try to keep my Etsy shop running.  I'm trying to figure out how to make my dreams work when I'm out in the middle of nowhere. At first I didn't even have decent Internet access.  At least I've fixed that temporarily. A friend helped me to get Broadband. I'm not sure how long he'll keep paying for it, so I hope I can get more income so I don't have to go back to 'slower than a turtle on tranquilizers' dial-up. I hate being dependent on the whims of others.

I also have a new granddaughter born in Feb. I haven't even gotten to see her yet because I don't have a way to drive 7 hours. So I'm crossing my fingers that the universe provides a way soon, because I don't want to miss her babyhood. She's already almost a month old!

Here are some photos of my new home.

Taken from my backyard.

Joshua tree in my yard.

Tonight's sunset.

Not One of My Better Days

Some days I feel like the universe plots against me. Today started out okay but quickly went downhill and never recovered. So I buried myself in a good book (Crown of Stars) and also took a long afternoon nap. I am feeling the frustration of not having my own vehicle right now. On days where I just want to hop in and drive far far away I can't. So I feel like I'm climbing the walls. I know a lot of blogs are all about sunshine and sugar but this isn't one of them. It would be fake to say I always felt that way. Emotionally I feel like I'm slogging through the mud. It seems like everything stands between me and my goals. Lack of money, lack of encouragement, lack of opportunity and a body that keeps reminding me that I'm 54, not 24. Sometimes forcing myself to do things just doesn't work, so today I just let the to-do list go and just did my best to get through this negative spiral.